They see what I want them to see

Sometimes....I just want to hide

I want to run away from all this confusion and hatred in the world

Away from the cruel words that pierce my soul

Cry until the tears flow no more...

I don't want to have to face sympathetic eyes

I don't want to hear words of comfort offered....when no comfort can be found.

My pain.......is mine alone.

I feel it.  I live it.  I deal with it.

I want to crawl deep inside myself and lock the door to my heart.

If only for a little while......

Just until the hurt and panic subsides and I can breathe again

Just until I can push the demons out of my mind and remember

That was then....This is now and  I'm Ok.... I'm Alive ..... I'm Safe

Sometimes....I have  to hide.....

Before everyone realizes that I'm the same as they are

Human.